as written on; Sunday, July 19, 2009
3:23 AM | 0 comments
One day just snapped out of it and realised that I'm at least worth a guy committing to me instead of just playing me around. A man who'd love me and think I'm perfect. Not a man who thinks the next girl might be better or more suitable for him than me.
Fuck that shit. I fucking had enough of JERKS who think they are all that! I'd rather be single than be treated like a dispensable and slightly used plastic fork!
Yes, bitches. I have quitted school. That is totally out of the point when I heard that I have got no choice but to quit school. Fuck you! How can someone like me quit my all-science related courses. My ambition is to become a phycologist. I am still on my way, step by step, bit by bit climbing up. And there goes my efforts put in these few years.
I'm being hospitalized. What does it mean? I couldn't come online as and when I want to, anymore. You people do take care.
Fuck that shit. I fucking had enough of JERKS who think they are all that! I'd rather be single than be treated like a dispensable and slightly used plastic fork!
Yes, bitches. I have quitted school. That is totally out of the point when I heard that I have got no choice but to quit school. Fuck you! How can someone like me quit my all-science related courses. My ambition is to become a phycologist. I am still on my way, step by step, bit by bit climbing up. And there goes my efforts put in these few years.
I'm being hospitalized. What does it mean? I couldn't come online as and when I want to, anymore. You people do take care.
as written on; Sunday, July 05, 2009
12:08 AM | 0 comments
This is a saved draft. Am not talking to my sister these days.
The problem lies on me, but not her.
MY SISTER.
I think that my sister's kinda cool.
There was once, this guy who liked her said to her after a quarrel: "Dont talk to me. " I thought my sister would react like me (cry and give in). But no, you know what my sister replied to him? "Fine, Bye."
Cool sia. And she really didn't message him for afew days until that guy gave in and msged her lo. Im so proud of my sister now. Lol.
Then two days back that guy lectured her about some rubbish saying her character change all that. My sister copy pasted the whole convo for me and i told her to say "Listen to this. I. Dont. Fucking. Care. " Hate it when guys lecture girls when they are nothing better.
Anyway i dont know what's going on between him and her, but when i read what he wrote, like things that "i dont care about you" all that kind of shit, i want to interrupt him and say: if you dont care, why bother to send so much rubbish to her when she's not even replying you??
I think that my sister thinks and behave alot mature than her real age. I think it's because i'm always telling her everything when i was younger, thus she gets to know about the "teenage stuffs" earlier than her peeps and so she knows how to handle these stuffs. When i was her age i was so childish and lost lor!
But then sometimes i wish she's a little more stupid,
because nowsadays she seems to win every single argument with me.
Grrrr.
People, please keep your promise. Because there are some things which only allows someone who should know to know, and someone who shouldn't know to not know anything.
The problem lies on me, but not her.
MY SISTER.
I think that my sister's kinda cool.
There was once, this guy who liked her said to her after a quarrel: "Dont talk to me. " I thought my sister would react like me (cry and give in). But no, you know what my sister replied to him? "Fine, Bye."
Cool sia. And she really didn't message him for afew days until that guy gave in and msged her lo. Im so proud of my sister now. Lol.
Then two days back that guy lectured her about some rubbish saying her character change all that. My sister copy pasted the whole convo for me and i told her to say "Listen to this. I. Dont. Fucking. Care. " Hate it when guys lecture girls when they are nothing better.
Anyway i dont know what's going on between him and her, but when i read what he wrote, like things that "i dont care about you" all that kind of shit, i want to interrupt him and say: if you dont care, why bother to send so much rubbish to her when she's not even replying you??
I think that my sister thinks and behave alot mature than her real age. I think it's because i'm always telling her everything when i was younger, thus she gets to know about the "teenage stuffs" earlier than her peeps and so she knows how to handle these stuffs. When i was her age i was so childish and lost lor!
But then sometimes i wish she's a little more stupid,
because nowsadays she seems to win every single argument with me.
Grrrr.
People, please keep your promise. Because there are some things which only allows someone who should know to know, and someone who shouldn't know to not know anything.
as written on; Tuesday, June 30, 2009
3:59 AM | 0 comments
Tiff, i chanced upon your facebook(:
You guys are sweet. To the max. Please, save this r/s.
Perhaps he might be the best you've ever met in your life.
So what if you could still be engaged into a new r/s anytime.
Your heart always stays with the one you loves most. Get it?
This is not fair for both parties, you and Wee.(:
4months, i know. It is not easy. At the 4th month, it is still considered as a honeymoon period.
Please, you wouldn't want to know what will happen aftermath.
The later part are always the unbearable part for some couples.
Thus, their r/s ended.
You trust my conclusion do you?(:
I am a M&I Science student. Believe it or not, i am still going to let you know.
Couples that are in long-lasting love, involves good communications, good interactions, and good understanding.
What that is not seen in both you and Wee, is good understanding. Abit of good communications, and interactions.
Reflect. I am not saying that what has happen, is totally your fault.
Do something about it to save the r/s.
I believe you guys will be able to make it!
Boy, i realised something. You are nolonger entertaining me when i nag at you.
You did something else instead. Please, i am able to see what you are doing behind the screen.
I am nolonger looking at your MSN chat windows. I was just wondering why is such a young boy out there so busy. I wanted to know what you are doing. I saw you playing games behind the screen when i am there, trying to make you understand some things! I know, i may be just a friend to you or maybe a cyber pal since we haven't met. But, do please think about how the other party is feeling. I know, i know you wouldn't give it a damn if someone choosed not to reply to your smses, msn IMs. Well, forget it. I shall stop.
Sissy, sometimes mummy might be a little too picking towards you. I know.(:
But she have seen your improvement in your attitude, behaviour and changed mindset.
Getting used to what mummy says to you, is both a good thing, and a bad thing.
Why good? Atleast you get to improve yourself. Towards the kind of girl mummy wants and always getting better and better. I am glad that you didn't get yourself feel rather hurt by them, anymore. Why bad? One day, you might get tired. Tired of all those stress being placed on you, tired of all the expectations being set on you. You yourself know what will happen. I hope you remember that particular day. You are no longer detesting books, you are no longer detesting maths. You are no longer praying hard that you will get good results by luck, when you didn't even put in 1% of effort to it. Did you realise that?(: You are no longer shouting at mummy like what you use to do when you are in Primary school(: You are no longer saying that mummy didn't understand you, or accept you at all. I know, you feel empty inside during that period of growing up. As all mummy did was to call you an useless chap who couldn't make it for school works. You are no longer believing in 'happy-go-lucky' your PSLE results showed that you can! Though you did not even study a little for it, you could get a freaking 187. You yourself got shocked! I am really elated to see you taking it as a punishment for the whole 6year life spent in Primary school. What about now?(: Now, you are someone who treats your textbook like your storybooks.(: Though you are feeling lazy, feeling boring, feeling sleepy, i clearly know that once you pick out your textbook and start flipping through them, you woudn't stop(: No one can stop you till you finally stops. I thought that it was a bad idea but first, forgetting that everyone has different way of learning.(: You are taking in what mummy says and is improving yourself all the time to get a sentence of phraise from mum. That day will definitely come. You might not know about this. But mummy did actually asked around for your results. She smiled, she said that you are great and she cried(: Did you see those changes in you?(: I don't think so ya? You must be asking yourself "Did i? I do?" Yes, you did, and you do!(: You are a totally transformed person now, sissy. I am really proud to have a sister like you!(:
Wensheng, do study hard for your Olvls. After your Olvls, where do you want to do, you can decide slowly. Be it serving SG as a NS men, a stupdent of XXX polytechnic or what, it is all up to you. Having good Olvl results also mean that you have a choice to make. You can choose where to you want to go. Having bad Olvl results will lead you to somewhere you wouldn't like. I should say, you shouldn't be there in the first place. I can be here for you to help you with your school work and better still, i can teach you things you couldn't understand in school. Since sissy said that forcing someone to do what he/she do not like doesn't seems to be approprate, i will not force you to do whatever shits. It all depends on you. Ask yourself, what do you want? Approach me when you think that you need my help. I will definitely not turn you down.
Boy, thanks for willingly be with sissy and taking care of her. My sister have got alot of hidden secrets. Bad habbits and all. Sorry for all the troubles. You are a nice guy(:
You guys are sweet. To the max. Please, save this r/s.
Perhaps he might be the best you've ever met in your life.
So what if you could still be engaged into a new r/s anytime.
Your heart always stays with the one you loves most. Get it?
This is not fair for both parties, you and Wee.(:
4months, i know. It is not easy. At the 4th month, it is still considered as a honeymoon period.
Please, you wouldn't want to know what will happen aftermath.
The later part are always the unbearable part for some couples.
Thus, their r/s ended.
You trust my conclusion do you?(:
I am a M&I Science student. Believe it or not, i am still going to let you know.
Couples that are in long-lasting love, involves good communications, good interactions, and good understanding.
What that is not seen in both you and Wee, is good understanding. Abit of good communications, and interactions.
Reflect. I am not saying that what has happen, is totally your fault.
Do something about it to save the r/s.
I believe you guys will be able to make it!
Boy, i realised something. You are nolonger entertaining me when i nag at you.
You did something else instead. Please, i am able to see what you are doing behind the screen.
I am nolonger looking at your MSN chat windows. I was just wondering why is such a young boy out there so busy. I wanted to know what you are doing. I saw you playing games behind the screen when i am there, trying to make you understand some things! I know, i may be just a friend to you or maybe a cyber pal since we haven't met. But, do please think about how the other party is feeling. I know, i know you wouldn't give it a damn if someone choosed not to reply to your smses, msn IMs. Well, forget it. I shall stop.
Sissy, sometimes mummy might be a little too picking towards you. I know.(:
But she have seen your improvement in your attitude, behaviour and changed mindset.
Getting used to what mummy says to you, is both a good thing, and a bad thing.
Why good? Atleast you get to improve yourself. Towards the kind of girl mummy wants and always getting better and better. I am glad that you didn't get yourself feel rather hurt by them, anymore. Why bad? One day, you might get tired. Tired of all those stress being placed on you, tired of all the expectations being set on you. You yourself know what will happen. I hope you remember that particular day. You are no longer detesting books, you are no longer detesting maths. You are no longer praying hard that you will get good results by luck, when you didn't even put in 1% of effort to it. Did you realise that?(: You are no longer shouting at mummy like what you use to do when you are in Primary school(: You are no longer saying that mummy didn't understand you, or accept you at all. I know, you feel empty inside during that period of growing up. As all mummy did was to call you an useless chap who couldn't make it for school works. You are no longer believing in 'happy-go-lucky' your PSLE results showed that you can! Though you did not even study a little for it, you could get a freaking 187. You yourself got shocked! I am really elated to see you taking it as a punishment for the whole 6year life spent in Primary school. What about now?(: Now, you are someone who treats your textbook like your storybooks.(: Though you are feeling lazy, feeling boring, feeling sleepy, i clearly know that once you pick out your textbook and start flipping through them, you woudn't stop(: No one can stop you till you finally stops. I thought that it was a bad idea but first, forgetting that everyone has different way of learning.(: You are taking in what mummy says and is improving yourself all the time to get a sentence of phraise from mum. That day will definitely come. You might not know about this. But mummy did actually asked around for your results. She smiled, she said that you are great and she cried(: Did you see those changes in you?(: I don't think so ya? You must be asking yourself "Did i? I do?" Yes, you did, and you do!(: You are a totally transformed person now, sissy. I am really proud to have a sister like you!(:
Wensheng, do study hard for your Olvls. After your Olvls, where do you want to do, you can decide slowly. Be it serving SG as a NS men, a stupdent of XXX polytechnic or what, it is all up to you. Having good Olvl results also mean that you have a choice to make. You can choose where to you want to go. Having bad Olvl results will lead you to somewhere you wouldn't like. I should say, you shouldn't be there in the first place. I can be here for you to help you with your school work and better still, i can teach you things you couldn't understand in school. Since sissy said that forcing someone to do what he/she do not like doesn't seems to be approprate, i will not force you to do whatever shits. It all depends on you. Ask yourself, what do you want? Approach me when you think that you need my help. I will definitely not turn you down.
Boy, thanks for willingly be with sissy and taking care of her. My sister have got alot of hidden secrets. Bad habbits and all. Sorry for all the troubles. You are a nice guy(:
as written on; Monday, June 22, 2009
8:05 AM | 0 comments
I'm sick and tired of hanging on like this.I used to have the best of both worlds,never thought i came so far without all thatI'm supposed not to live without, guess it beenquite a while and I really need a break now.
Boyboy, am sorry for not replying to your text.
Now here it is(:
I went to Justin's house to collect all my belongings.
Sissy wasn't back yet due to late dismissal, i think?(:
I guess i have never seen such lovely pair of couple in my entire 16years of life(:
And iw as right, you guys will become the centre of enviousness(:
Yes, the wordful of paragraph which i used as a start of this entry, is partially why i chosoed to stay in aus instead.(: Don't worry, nobody is at fault, ok. I will be doing good, doing fine and well. So you guys do not have to worry for me, much(: I will still return back to home occasionally for some gatherings and all(: Do some catch ups ya, buddies?(:
Boyboy, am sorry for not replying to your text.
Now here it is(:
I went to Justin's house to collect all my belongings.
Sissy wasn't back yet due to late dismissal, i think?(:
I guess i have never seen such lovely pair of couple in my entire 16years of life(:
And iw as right, you guys will become the centre of enviousness(:
Yes, the wordful of paragraph which i used as a start of this entry, is partially why i chosoed to stay in aus instead.(: Don't worry, nobody is at fault, ok. I will be doing good, doing fine and well. So you guys do not have to worry for me, much(: I will still return back to home occasionally for some gatherings and all(: Do some catch ups ya, buddies?(:
as written on; Monday, May 18, 2009
8:15 AM | 0 comments
"Sissy, take this as the most important lesson learned in your life. You have just learned something that not any other people have learnt. People do make mistakes. It all only depends on how the person sees it as. The next one will be better."
Can you believe that my little sissy has grown up? That's what she said to me, in short. Had a heart to heart talk with Sissy over the phone. I called back to SG.(: So yesterday marks the end of the relationship and i guess it is just like what sissy said. The next one will be better. Since both of us couldn't even any hope and faith in this relationship anymore, we might as well jsut seperate and each of us goes our own ways.
Well, J and I tried. But you, not yet. So give it a try and never say that you want to give up unless you really want to. I can't help but from the theories i've learnt over the years, some couples which broke up do make up a good + and - combination. I see that in you. I will not give up on my happiness, i will fight for it. Sissy you too, RENGIE NEVER SAYS DIE. Remeber?(: Give it your best shot and make it a good one.
Can you believe that my little sissy has grown up? That's what she said to me, in short. Had a heart to heart talk with Sissy over the phone. I called back to SG.(: So yesterday marks the end of the relationship and i guess it is just like what sissy said. The next one will be better. Since both of us couldn't even any hope and faith in this relationship anymore, we might as well jsut seperate and each of us goes our own ways.
Well, J and I tried. But you, not yet. So give it a try and never say that you want to give up unless you really want to. I can't help but from the theories i've learnt over the years, some couples which broke up do make up a good + and - combination. I see that in you. I will not give up on my happiness, i will fight for it. Sissy you too, RENGIE NEVER SAYS DIE. Remeber?(: Give it your best shot and make it a good one.
as written on; Sunday, May 10, 2009
1:24 AM | 0 comments
Sissy, i was glad that you're telling yourself that you will be alright.
You learnt that from me, and now i've caught you using it! laughs(:
I am not worried for you, anymore. Cause i know that Rengie is not a 101% dependant person.
She is someone who is able to independant. She adds colour into everything she sees and do not bother about the colourless side. Am i right?(: Hang in there, i am doing fine. Call me tonight(:
I think daddy would be over the moon for recieving the bill end of this month! Lets burn his pocket!
I have been spending money drastically over the month and poof, my allowance came again. Not by my parents but the... yeah. So i was glad to have pocket money coming in every now and then. The feeling of being loaded with money was great. The bunkers cafe, the night clubbing... Oh my, they are just so wonderful and great for teens like us to go! But the insects here are dangerous. Even a tiny little spider can kill. WATCH OUT! Laughs(:
Currently on a chat with J. He is doing fine with her and all. So, there is nothing much to worry about your well beings. But, i went into her blog. I realised that J catches her when he falls, he motivates her, he make her happy with his words. The unbearable one was he actually managed to make her promise him to really do well for her exams and tests, the rest of the year. Yes, they are classmates. They are seeing each other every single day. WTH?! So is she trying to hint me that J is standing a bigger space in her heart, as the days goes by? J, are you trying to tell me that without me, but with her presence, you are doing very well? Contradicted.
But whaever it is, i've said that i have got no faith in you. So, i guess i don't wna care anymore.
Happy mothers day to all mothers. The son/daughters of the mothers here booked many rstaurants for their mummy and you can see all the mums here with fresh flowers necked around. Their culture.. How interesting?
Likewise to you, boyboy. Study hard, all the best for the up coming papers(:
Health matters, do not tire yourself! You sounded rather low on the chat now.. are you ok?
Update a little paragraph to reply on this, can you? I do not know why the tagboards are unseen here. So.. hope to hear from you soon!
You learnt that from me, and now i've caught you using it! laughs(:
I am not worried for you, anymore. Cause i know that Rengie is not a 101% dependant person.
She is someone who is able to independant. She adds colour into everything she sees and do not bother about the colourless side. Am i right?(: Hang in there, i am doing fine. Call me tonight(:
I think daddy would be over the moon for recieving the bill end of this month! Lets burn his pocket!
I have been spending money drastically over the month and poof, my allowance came again. Not by my parents but the... yeah. So i was glad to have pocket money coming in every now and then. The feeling of being loaded with money was great. The bunkers cafe, the night clubbing... Oh my, they are just so wonderful and great for teens like us to go! But the insects here are dangerous. Even a tiny little spider can kill. WATCH OUT! Laughs(:
Currently on a chat with J. He is doing fine with her and all. So, there is nothing much to worry about your well beings. But, i went into her blog. I realised that J catches her when he falls, he motivates her, he make her happy with his words. The unbearable one was he actually managed to make her promise him to really do well for her exams and tests, the rest of the year. Yes, they are classmates. They are seeing each other every single day. WTH?! So is she trying to hint me that J is standing a bigger space in her heart, as the days goes by? J, are you trying to tell me that without me, but with her presence, you are doing very well? Contradicted.
But whaever it is, i've said that i have got no faith in you. So, i guess i don't wna care anymore.
Happy mothers day to all mothers. The son/daughters of the mothers here booked many rstaurants for their mummy and you can see all the mums here with fresh flowers necked around. Their culture.. How interesting?
Likewise to you, boyboy. Study hard, all the best for the up coming papers(:
Health matters, do not tire yourself! You sounded rather low on the chat now.. are you ok?
Update a little paragraph to reply on this, can you? I do not know why the tagboards are unseen here. So.. hope to hear from you soon!
as written on; Tuesday, May 05, 2009
3:40 AM | 0 comments
I came online early in the morning which is nearly midnight in SG, i think?
Laughs. Things are good here and i have yet to see my mates here.
I hope that they will be nice. I went to hop around google for some info about the earth and i chanced upon this particular website which talks about the doomsday. Google about it if you are curious and it somehow might be the end of our lives on the 21st december 2012. To believe or not, it is up to you. Sometimes things might be true and eventually happens but sometimes not. You see? So, it is left for you to decide. I find it so interesting that i actually went to look at the theory and all. As a science and geogaphy student, i should be curious and finding more myself rather than depending on those scientist. Some scientist are really useless and they call themself scientist just for being a white mouse/rat for famous scientists and i do not know why. I hope that those scientist working on this doomsday will not use the phrase "IT WILL HAPPEN" when they themselves is unsure about the theory and wasn't really sure about it. There were a group of scientist saying that IT WILL HAPPEN on the year 2006 or 2007. When the year 2006 is over, many were panicking over year 2007. Guess what? Nothing happened. RETARDS. Why so such people call themselves a PROFESSIONAL SCIENTIST? Whatever like i care. If i am the head of those scientist, i would really really remind them NOT TO MAKE ASSUMPTION! Because people all over the world may really be panicking and all. You, scientist, wouldn't know how many civillians are pointing fingers at your pictures of badmouthing you at the back.
J, Girlgirl, Boyboy, are you guys doing fine?
Happy belated birthday to you, boyboy!
Happy sweet sixteen!(:
Are you and girlgirl doing fine?
Get back together soon!(:
Girlgirl, all i can say, is it i really miss your sexy legs.
laughs(:
J, don't get jealous too soon. Becaue i missed you the most.
xoxo.
Till then, 11.34am.
Laughs. Things are good here and i have yet to see my mates here.
I hope that they will be nice. I went to hop around google for some info about the earth and i chanced upon this particular website which talks about the doomsday. Google about it if you are curious and it somehow might be the end of our lives on the 21st december 2012. To believe or not, it is up to you. Sometimes things might be true and eventually happens but sometimes not. You see? So, it is left for you to decide. I find it so interesting that i actually went to look at the theory and all. As a science and geogaphy student, i should be curious and finding more myself rather than depending on those scientist. Some scientist are really useless and they call themself scientist just for being a white mouse/rat for famous scientists and i do not know why. I hope that those scientist working on this doomsday will not use the phrase "IT WILL HAPPEN" when they themselves is unsure about the theory and wasn't really sure about it. There were a group of scientist saying that IT WILL HAPPEN on the year 2006 or 2007. When the year 2006 is over, many were panicking over year 2007. Guess what? Nothing happened. RETARDS. Why so such people call themselves a PROFESSIONAL SCIENTIST? Whatever like i care. If i am the head of those scientist, i would really really remind them NOT TO MAKE ASSUMPTION! Because people all over the world may really be panicking and all. You, scientist, wouldn't know how many civillians are pointing fingers at your pictures of badmouthing you at the back.
J, Girlgirl, Boyboy, are you guys doing fine?
Happy belated birthday to you, boyboy!
Happy sweet sixteen!(:
Are you and girlgirl doing fine?
Get back together soon!(:
Girlgirl, all i can say, is it i really miss your sexy legs.
laughs(:
J, don't get jealous too soon. Becaue i missed you the most.
xoxo.
Till then, 11.34am.
